Tired and Feeling Guilty

Well after a long night TP is now at the VA Hospital. I fell asleep for about an hour and woke up to...."Ok You were right. I need to go to the hospital"....So I drag  three sleepy little girls from bed and we head off to our local VA hospital. Thankfully the waiting room nurse puts on some Disney Junior for the kiddies. Since I can't leave the kids unattended and can't take them back into the ER, I sit with them in the waiting room.....for an hr. I go back to check on his progress. Doc is seeing him and says he is sending him for a CT scan. So he is definitely going to be there for a while. TP sends me home with the kids til everything is done and he is cleared to go home. So here I sit waiting....at home. I can't help but worry about him. I need to see if  there is a such thing as an on call babysitter. I feel guilty for not being there. All there is to do is dose myself up with lots of coffee and wait for his call. All I can do is pray we do not have anymore nights like this one. Pray we can get some of his pain  under control. Pray for some straight answers.